It's been on my mind to update for a while, so I thought I finally would. I've been doing a lot more thinking and a lot less talking than usual (well...a lot less talking) and it's really not a good combination. I read on someone's profile somewhere online that he spent a lot of time thinking when he was a kid and that consequently he was a disturbed child.
Well, I can agree and relate. There is such a thing, I think, as mental inbreeding. There's a verse in the Bible I've always liked that says, "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another." When we share and talk out our ideas we allow ourselves to see them with a better, bigger-picture perspective and we give others the opportunity to go through them and point out their weaknesses, plus offer their own ideas, possibilities, insights. When you think things round and around in your head like a misguided person stuck in a revolving door, you wear the door out and beat down the poor person, too, till he's battered and bruised and can't work well anymore. (In case that confused you, the person is the thoughts, the revolving door your mind. I know that is a hilarious metaphor, but work with me here).
One thing I have been trying to do this year is get myself around the kind of people who are concerned and interested and indeed already possess the things I want to possess. There's a group of guys and girls who meet during the week (separately and then together) to talk about missions, but most of all just to encourage each other, so I've been trying to go to that. Last night we had a retreat and it gave me a chance to see some of the girls there in a different light--people I'd known were what I wanted to be, but I'd held myself back from getting to know. So it was really good last night to talk about struggles and hear what some of them had to say, be encouraged and try to encourage and offer insights to each other.
The best part is, the girls have started a more personal accountability group (the boys already have one) where we get to sit and talk like we did last night...every week! I've missed the first couple of meetings because classwork has been so crazy, but now that that's kind of in a calm, I'm looking forward to going. I can't wait.